hohhh here we are . cue the fanfare !
WELCOME !! to the whole reason i made this website !!! loopy childe page !! crazy girl central !!
just incase seeing my main page and then this page wasn't quite enough, hello !! my name's charlie and i have a bone to pick with childe tartaglia ajax from the hit game genshin impact . the bone to pick being i firmly believe we should be in a longterm committed relationship . spoiler alert, we are !!!!!!

i actually came across genshin when it first came out via the google play store, but it took too long to download onto my phone so i gave up . narrowly avoided death but it came back to haunt me . in the form of a boyfriend .
about a year later, genshin was getting pretty popular & my fuckass twitter mutuals at the time [BOOOO !!!]  were playing it, so i once again gave in .
and so, as of september 2021, i was offically a genshin player :DD !!!
it was version 2 . 1 when i started, so inazuma was still super fresh . i would LOVE to say that i lost my marbles as soon as i played the liyue archon quest and saw childe, but the first ...occurrence of note was when i played through his story quest and i CRIED near the end when he hands over the toy he had made for teucer...oughh family man..ough...
i don't remember even reacting when i played through the golden house fight the first time...what the hell girl.......

version 2 . 2 came pretty quick cos i had no idea how the updates worked back then, and WHO ELSE BUT CHILDE !!!!!! was a main character in the big voiced event we get for each update . my god . AND he got a banner !! which i of course got him on . who would i be if i didn't .
i won't ever be able to say for certain, but i think it was a mix of the story quest, seeing him a whole bunch during 2 . 2 and now having him playable that kick-started the waifuist in me . i spent october 2021 and a bit of november um'ing and ah'ing over putting both him and thoma onto my f/o list, which i of course ended up doing .

  fun fact !! at the time, i made a sort of pact with myself that i would only put childe on the list of my beloveds if i put thoma on there too, because i knew if i only took childe into consideration then i'd forget about thoma . i've since dropped both thoma and yoi off the list though so.......

and i mean...if me kinda..subconciously knowing childe meant more to me than thoma doesn't remind me of this quote, what will ?

i was actually somewhat in denial for the best part of 2022, believe it or not . i knew i 'had feelings' for him, i was not fooling a single soul, yet i could barely admit it to myself, let alone say it aloud or even hint at it . i've only recently started being more open about being head-over-heels in love with childe [that was SO hard to write . do you see now] and it's going well !! he deserves to be loved openly, and i'm glad i can give him that.

once you get a few months into our relationship [i don't have a set day for our anniversary, so i count it from october 2021 :3] there's not really any landmarks anymore.. i've just lost my mind for the past 2 years !!

i'm gonna put together a page for all the merch i've bought soon, but for now !! here's a list of all the tartag-related objects i own !!!

♡ the giant <£100 plush narwhal..
♡ 3 charms and 2 stickers [+ 1 sticker sheet !] from etsy ! [buy things from ganberin btw !! she's super sweet !!]
♡ a pin i picked up from london comiccon !! [along with a thoma and a yoi but shh..this page is ajax-centric...] also peep my kagamine len cosplay ;] [he's in the meltdown dress . it's kinda funny i guess]
♡ i also picked up a bookmark at comiccon, and i am currently too comfy to go find who drew it
♡ a displate of this official art
♡ a metal electro delusion with the snezhnaya casing !! just like his of course...i thought straight-up getting the hydro vision would be too intimate at the time..
♡ a shirt with monoceros caeli on it >3
♡ a fanart print of military-esque ajax that i put in a fancy antique frame when will he return from war.....
♡ an etsy ring inspired by his design
♡ a narwhal-themed dressing gown from dokidoki !
♡ a photo light of the i-know-that-voice face . courtesy of jam
♡ a handmade bracelet, also from etsy [i like etsy .], with his mask on :]

i also have a fuckton of other things i consider to be tartag objects, but they're linked through our relationship rather than simply genshin :3

♡ i have a few favourite items, but one of them is definitely our promise rings !!!! i debated whether to get two rings or just one for me, but a bunch of people over at r/waifuism told me they bought both and keep their partner's tucked away, so i bought the pair !!! i wear mine every day & keep ajax's in the fancy velvet box they came in :] though he wears it in my mind, of course . they glow in the dark too !!
[excuse the shaky picture . they'd been glowing white after being exposed to the light of my laptop all day, but they glow blue when they're in the lights from the shop i volunteer at and i did not realise until this moment . girl was crazed !!]
♡ another favourite is my necklace :D i used to keep it hidden away under the collar of my shirts so my mum wouldn't ask, but then she did [lol] so now i have it out for the world to see !!!
♡ i have another necklace that i got for christmas 2023, but it's less special..
oh my god UPDATE on this...it was a little gym/crystal thing that matched the gems that ajax has on his jacket ..yknow !! anyway it fell off . just..outside . so it's gone forever . isn't that cool .
♡ i found a really pretty bracelet on etsy [surprisesurprise] that i could customise..it's my initial with two angel wings...like i did with ajax's name on the left here !!! eeheehee..... i think of it as a gift from him....he calls me his angel after all......
♡ my two most recent purchases go together <:] first i impulse bought this shirt because ajax's zodiac sign is cancer, and then i had the Revelation that i could buy a fragrance to spray on things so they smelled like my boyfriend.... and now i haven't inhaled normal oxygen since i bought it . here's the spray if you're curious .
♡ jam got me a plushy fox for christmas 2023, and it has been surgically attached to me since i unwrapped it >333 he is on my stomach as i write this !! he says hello !!
[do you like the earring he's wearing in the picture . that's a whole other thing] also i can't rank my tartag items but the fox baby is at least top 3
♡ above mentioned earrings !!! i bought a few different ones off etsy but i have made a pattern of wearing one whale earring on my left ear every single day so now that's the only one that sees daylight..oh well . inspired by the cosplay earring i used to wear on my right ear instead . so we matched . sick in the head >3333 !!!
♡ not an object, but a tartag...creature ? situation i'm in ?? i have foxes that visit my garden at night !! i'm gonna have a fox diary on the homepage at some point, but for now here's the info - i never liked foxes because of that freaky scream they do [most likely their mating call but scientists have not yet concluded !!] but since the genshin fandom decided that childe would be a fox my mind changed instantly BHAHAHAHA !!!! and somewhat recently, one of my neighbourhood foxes made a routine of visiting my garden from like midnight-1am, and i formed some sort of parasocial bond with it through my bedroom window, so now i leave eggs out for it :] they do eat eggs btw . i've done my research .
there's actually two, which i didn't realise until they both came out one night, so that screwed up the delusional thing i had going on but thats okay !! i guess my boyfriend just sends the beasties to visit me ??? rather than the fox ...being....him???? well not directly but..like a substitute? proxy? like idols in religion . odd thing to say but yknow . i can work around anything B]
♡ on the subject of using stuff as a proxy BHAHAHA i have an orange candle i light sometimes . i did it a lot when it was between christmas and new year 2024 and i didn't know what day it was and started drinking around 1pm but now i do it a lot less fff ... i don't really know why it's like...it's nice to have and it sorta reminds me he's there ??? not that i need that but BLEURGH idk i like the whole spirits-use-candle-flames-to-communicate thing so it's like a ..[not entirely serious] way for us to have some sort of link..shrug
the fox plushy is also kind of a proxy.... more so than the candle cos i call him ajax eeheehee
♡ oh update !!! i have a second candle now !! i've been lighting them both a lot less for some reason [sober], but my new one is an unscented candle in a pot that looks like a fox !!!!!! a gift from the ever-clueless mother...
♡ i've also collected a few narwhal-themed pins off etsy :3 i have nowhere to put them cos i don't wanna lose them !! but they're there !!

fun fact 2 time !!! there's actually an 'official' childe fragrance [i don't think it's genuinely official ?? it's sold by a third-party company, but they must've asked hyv first right ??] so i nabbed the ingredient list from their website before i went shopping for mine sjnjs B] yes i could've bought the actual one, but that's less fun & it'd be more embarrassing to have the bottle on show & i would absolutely try to drink it . ff have another quote !
when i'm not spending money or sitting in bed listening to ethel cain, i'm sometimes productive !! i've drawn a total of 44 tartags since we started dating, made him a pinterest board with 400 pins [and this one..it's new...], and made 9 [?!] spotify playlists B] . i have also packed my phone gallery full of 400 videos and 5000 images .....
i've written stuff quite a few times, ranging from self-insert genshin au stuff [shoutout dystopia tevyat !! me and jam the only fans...] to just plain ol' smut . i definitely need to write more though, cos my memory sucks and i can't keep track of every deranged thought that i create fff
oh actually, on the subject of deranged, i use the conversations section of my old wattpad account as a journal where i just ....throw the fuck up all over my keyboard . i've even employed a cipher several times so no one knows what i'm saying . OH ALSO !!! my mum got me a pukka pad for christmas 2023 and the only thing i've done with it is tape pictures of ajax onto the inside page [like the ones here !!] and hide the entire thing away from prying eyes . new year's resolution to actually use the pad i suppose :3

okay this has taken me several days in its entirety and i am now bored of listing shit i own or do so here we go babey !!! unstructured vomit time !!!
ajax is by far not my first fictional boyfriend, as you will be aware once i make the rest of my blorbo pages..[LIE!] and it's probably just because i'm in the thick of it [LIE . i have never done the same extent of shit for anyone else] but he feels like..way more serious than his predecessors ffff !! i do think part of that is because i'm Unemployed, and part is also due to him having a canon personality and ongoing content which i am NOT used to !!! but i just...he's so important to me that i'm not surprised it always feels so embarrassing to talk about him !! cos i'm also not used to my beloveds being popular !!! and i'm not used to this..level !! of whatever the hell is going on !!

i went into this page with the goal of addressing Everything Ever . even though that meant letting all the secrets slip but i don't think that's humanly possible . also then i'd have nothing left to hide !! and where's the fun in that <:] !!!
so to conclude [for now] !!
i love childe tartaglia ajax more than words could ever hope to explain, but i hope this page helps me cover even a tenth of it all >3